For the next year and one day, any time you encounter a Brother or situation, you consider to any antithetical to your esoteric view of Masonry, laud and praise those you believe are negating your views. Embrace them, and posit your view without denigrating or diminishing them, or a Lodge or a Grand Lodge.
If you cannot do this, perhaps you are less antithetical in Masonic approach with those Brothers than you might surmise.